The Vault

It is incredible what our children retain.  Their capacity for reiterating stories back to us at the most unexpected times is extraordinary.  Sometimes I have to remind myself that my children are literally tiny vaults of encapsulated memories, constantly conjuring up elements from days past.

“We’re going to SESAME PLACE!!!!” Adrian screams every time we drive through a certain spot on the BQE.  “Remember when you made me wings, bought me a cookie, blew bubbles in the park, talked to the old lady with the doggie, and read me the story about the glittery mermaids?!”.  How can she possible recall the sequential order of a day that took place years ago? A day that felt rather random to me, yet clearly significant to her.  

I have a handfuls of memories I vividly remember from when I was Lucia’s exact age.  Like when I’d image in Kindergarten that my cubbie had the pretty rainbow painted on it and not the caged Lion that was assigned to me.  I remember that my friend A frequently peed in her pants and didn’t understand why F‘s tush was always peeking out of the top of his jeans.  I remember visiting my mother’s family in Colombia for the first time and begging my Tias to take me to see the movie Annie in English.  But mostly, I think of my mother and her ability to guide me and my brother with steadfast grace and compassion.  Traits I hope to emulate in my own motherhood.

School vacations always have a way of making me reevaluate my role as mama. Free of schedules, our days are fluid, filled with outdoor play, messy crafting and family-time.  I’m reminded of how Lucia and Adrian simply need to be kids and small gestures can make their days feel magical. 

My husband and I are a solid team, but recently, life’s challenges have been getting the best of us.  It feels impossible to practice “calm begets calm” when I honestly just want to scream, and the big girl still doesn’t have her shoes on after asking several times.   It’s been hard for my husband not to be short and stern when external stressors are no longer few and far between.

Then I observe my Lucia mimicking my frustration, and I watch them both be little bosses to one another.  Soon they retreat back to their biggest influence, seeking comfort found in mama’s arms. 

Sometime we need to step back and reassess the roots.  We need to reflect on our collective intentions and the foundation upon which we built our little family. Our future actions will continue to bear flaws, but accountability, and perseverance to amend can be part of our legacy.

We somehow always return to spontaneity and fun, and Marino-style family dance parties.  And we do our best to reflect what we want them to emulate, with remembrance that each new day carries memories in the making.

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  1. Beautiful post & beautiful pictures!

  2. Beautiful.. Love the pictures

  3. I cannot say it often enough…you are a FABULOUS writer. Those pictures are equally gorgeous. xo

  4. I love your writing, it is so amazing

  5. I always love the way your kiddos are dressed. Adrian's glasses are adorable in that photo, and his hat! Too cute!

    This was a beautiful post, and such a good reminder for everyone. You're such a fabulous mommy. <3

  6. Beautifully said. The roller coaster of life is not easy but the fact that you and your husband remain a team and always return to your family's core foundation of spontaneity and fun is what's most important. And never stop those dance parties. 🙂

    • Thanks Monica – we are a solid team and I am beyond lucky to be married to him. I value the fact that we are always able to discuss our flaws, with a focus on our young, impressionable little sponges. We are so blessed to have them and I am so blessed to have my husband as a partner. My kiddos will surely now that we are not perfect, but we strive to set the best example that we can. Thanks so much for visiting.

  7. Beautiful post!!!

  8. Love these pics. Great post. Thanks for sharing. 🙂

  9. that is soooo GOOD. I often see than when my husband and I pick at each other the kids pick too. Love all these beautiful pictures <3

  10. So very true!! It's so easy to forget that kids are like sponges and pick up on everything we do. I recently saw my son pretending to conduct music because he's seen me do it…then I also see him getting frustrated and reacting like me…woops!! It's both a positive and a negative. You are so right in everything you said. Your kids are absolutely adorable!! So glad I found your blog!!

    I'm a new follower of your blog! Found you through Casey Wiegand's blog!

    Aloha,

    Jean {What Jean Likes}

    • Hi Jean,
      Thanks so much for reading and for commenting. Sometimes we see huge pieces of ourselves in them – what a tremendous job we have to lead the way!! Thanks for mentioned that it is a positive thing too. I swoon when I see their hearts of gratitude demonstrating compassion for others. I'm immensely flawed but reflect daily on how I want to positively influence them.

  11. it's awesome how your daughter looks like you and your son looks like your husband, you have such a beautiful family. the pictures of real life is so cool

  12. You're spot on with the mimicking, and with everything else too. This was a good post and I love that you let your little one jump on the bed, lol!!

  13. Such a beautiful blog and such sweet little ones 🙂
    Just found you through Casey Wiegand's link up, now following via GFC and excited to read more!

    XO
    Erin

    sweetnessitself.blogspot.com

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